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❰轟焦凍❱ TODOROKI SHOUTO ([personal profile] codominant) wrote2018-10-07 10:37 pm

@ pacifisting

[a few hasty bandaids over a profusely bleeding wound, that's probably all this is — but it stems the tide long enough for things to return to almost-normal by the time Monday rolls around. Todoroki has, as expected, recuperated from his hangover in the cool, dark, silent and blissful solitude in his room and sworn off consumption of clear Russian liquids for the foreseeable future, and seeing Midoriya in the morning is... well]

[they don't talk about it. and he doesn't want to. hopes to never, in fact, if he's allowed to have his way. there are a few times throughout the week he thinks he feels his gaze lingering on him a little too long, asking questions he doesn't have answers to (or doesn't want to), pushing his lunch around pensively as he thinks of a way to broach the topic when they're alone]

[in that, too, he gives him fewer opportunities for a while. Uraraka and Iida, oblivious as they are, make for pretty good buffers]

[...until he can't anymore, until there's blood leaking from his nose and his swollen, broken bottom lip, his back planted into the asphalt of an evacuated street by a giant's fist he wasn't fast enough to dodge, knocking the breath and the consciousness right out of him]

[when he comes to after the fight is over and Musutafu is, once again, safe, the only color he sees is — ]


Mi...dori...

[his voice is rough with pain or maybe screaming, a part of his body warm that usually isn't. is this... weight?]
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todoroki uses fluster, it's super fucking effective

[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-18 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
And people say I'm the stubborn one.

[ Midoriya's tone is gently teasing despite the exasperated little shake of his head. He'd do the exact same damn thing in Todoroki's position so he can't really blame him, but he wants to fuss and usher him into bed so he'll feel better.

Rather than arguing it any further, he watches Todoroki make his way over, absolutely not withering away inside at the way he's making his way around the room. He wants to offer to grab things, wants to help but bites it all back through sheer force of will which is for the best because he's not entirely sure he wouldn't have made a noise when Todoroki reaches out to him. The hand lowers and Midoriya's own twitches like he wants to, but...

An apology is on his lips for being so dirty and then Todoroki says that. This time there's no hiding the noise, a strangled thing that spills from his throat, cheeks, and ears burning under the dirt. ]
I — You.

[ Nailed it. ] You cannot just say things like that and — it's so much, I need to shower.

[ One big stupid grin at Todoroki and then he ducks in taking the quickest possible shower while still getting himself clean. He absolutely doesn't take a moment to catalog what kind of shampoos and conditioner Todoroki uses because that's weird but the moment he reads the title he knows he's going to remember it.

The hot water aches over the cuts and bruises but comparatively, he got off easy. As soon as he's done, he dries off as quick as he can and steals mouthwash if there is any in lieu of brushing his teeth. Now, at least, he feels marginally more human and slowly eases the door back open. Maybe Todoroki will have fallen asleep. ]
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it's not ACTUALLY running away cuz you're flustered if you come back, midoriya repeatedly tells hims

[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-18 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you again.

[ It's only in the shower that he starts to wonder if he hadn't been clear, too flustered to think of a coherent response that wasn't asking to kiss him while he was filthy and hadn't brushed his teeth. If Todoroki is asleep, they'll handle it in the morning, he thinks, but as it turns out Todoroki is awake and — still not wearing a shirt. Alright. He's seen Todoroki shirtless countless times from the group baths during camp ages ago to the times he's burned his shirts away but.

He's totally cool and totally fine. Giving his hair one final furious scrub with a hand to try and get out any last bit of water before he comes over, Midoriya smiles again. It's not the dopey grin from before, flustered and pleased and all teeth. This one is warmer though it's ruined a moment later by a massive yawn. To the futon, then, carefully picking his way over and going to his knees. ]


Is there anything I should get before?

[ There's a slightly mortifying moment where a part of him hopes Todoroki doesn't say shirt which he violently shoves down because he honestly did mean water or a phone charger or something. ]
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[ Oh. Yep, okay, chalk that up to another thing to fix. Midoriya obeys instantly, sliding himself down and tugging the covers over the both of them once he's sorted that out.

Todoroki just lays down like it's nothing, like the last few hours either didn't happen. Maybe it's just that he is really tired and finally they're both settled so he feels like he can fall asleep. Then again, if he's this worked up about it, he has a feeling that Todoroki might be too, which means stepping carefully, thinking about what he says before he says it. Heroes have to do this all the time, they have to know what to say and how to say it.

The moment Todoroki speaks, Midoriya rolls over onto his side, propping himself up to look at him. ]


I had dirt and probably some blood in my mouth. [ Dying honestly might've been easier than this, but he pushes through. Plus Ultra. ] Earlier.

[ Breathe in, attempt two. It's still rushed, but he's got that same determined face he gets when facing down a particularly complex Quirk. ] When you reached out, all I could think was that I really wanted to ask to kiss you again, but I wasso gross. If you don't want to, it's alright, but I was also going to ask if it was alright to sleep touching you. I mean I probably will already, I move around a lot you can push me away if you need—
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[ He doesn't kiss the fingers that linger, but it's extraordinarily tempting to the moment he realizes that he hasn't irrevocably messed up their relationship by running his mouth. It's alright isn't necessarily the ringing endorsement for continuing past fumbling for words, though.

Alright that he wants to? Alright that he's going to move around in his sleep?

Todoroki's fingers drift away before he can decide what he's doing and he almost mourns the loss except Todoroki doesn't pull away. Fingers drift over him his face and Midoriya's stomach abruptly goes full of butterflies all over again. It's alright, Todoroki repeats and that combined with the hand at the nape of his neck brings a pleased oh to his lips. He goes down easily, doing his level best to remember not to mash his nose into Todoroki's, or to tip over and smack their heads together.

It's not the optimal position to do this in, so gingerly, he scoots closer and leans over Todoroki, adjusting his weight so he won't tip over. He means to try and deepen it, but the smile on his face is too much to contain after just a few seconds. He pulls back, turning his head just enough to press a quick kiss to the inside of Todoroki's wrist, hiding his smile there a moment. ]


Sorry, sorry, I'm just— happy. [ To say the least. He is absolutely not tearing up because of how happy he is, he's fine. His free hand comes up to cup Todoroki's own gently and then his fingers skim down, tracing the line of his arm. Kissing is vastly preferable to sticking both feet in his mouth, so he leans back down, easing his lips over Todoroki's own again. ]
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[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-18 02:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ After the issues over text Midoriya did one of the things he knew how best to do: he studied. He pulled up articles on his phone, went through different sites to try and figure out if one place was more helpful than the next. A part of him debated going to Uraraka about it but he'd held back, just barely. Todoroki was the kind of person who kept a great deal secret, not quite locked down but close to his chest and The Kiss was already a subject Midoriya'd made a mistake with. Bringing other people into it was the worst possible idea.

So. Research. No one really had a scientific approach to kissing that he could find. You'll know how once you kiss the other person, you'll find out what they'll like on had said. Another suggested stopping every few moments to ask but that also sounded utterly ridiculous because once he started he wasn't going to ask Todoroki for a running score here. He'd vaguely perused videos but that felt too weird and voyeuristic for him to do anything with, which means he's left with practice, after you figure it out.

Maybe, if he's not great at it, it won't matter because Todoroki won't know either, so if it's terrible they have nothing to compare it to. The only issue with that is it's...not terrible. At all. Todoroki's a long, solid line of warmth down against him, his lips are soft and he's holding Midoriya steady like he's something important. Parting his lips without a second thought Midoriya tries desperately to remember every single thing he'd ever read about kissing involving tongues and realizes none of it compares to the real thing. It's like battle; he could read a thousand books and study really hard to know everything about a battle but it's nothing without practical application.

...Probably shouldn't tell Todoroki he's thinking about battles while they're kissing and probably shouldn't be thinking about anything else while they're kissing or he'll —

He's absolutely mumbling things under his breath, into the kiss and for a long moment is mortified at himself, pulling back just enough to look down at Todoroki, pupils blown wide. He looks — incredible, of course. Too much so to look at for any amount of time because he doesn't trust himself not to say anything ridiculous so one big hand comes up and cups his cheek again, guiding him into another kiss. This time he acts rather than reacts and absolutely doesn't mumble; he nips lightly at Todoroki's bottom lip slides his tongue against Todoroki's a moment later.

Oops. He's smiling again. ]
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[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-19 05:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's the smile that gets him.

Todoroki smiles, of course. It's not nearly as rare or as fleeting as it used to be and Midoriya's endlessly grateful for that, for Todoroki having more reasons to smile and feeling safe enough to do so. This isn't the I find a dumb joke you made amusing smile, though. It's different, or maybe just the context is. Any time Todoroki's smiled at him, it hasn't been spread out on his sheets, lips kiss-swollen and hair soft, damp.

Midoriya takes a deep, fortifying breath and pretends like he's not coming apart at the seams. It works...adequately. Of course, as soon as he thinks he has a hold on himself Todoroki is rolling them, shifting their weight on the futon and it takes everything in him not to squawk like a lunatic until they settle. His body braces for— something, almost. Too many times practicing how to fall and get back up to not have a part of him reflexively moving, testing to see where he can brace his weight if he's pinned. It's unnecessary, as it turns out. Todoroki isn't rolling over on top of him; they're side to side and there's a leg, a thigh sliding up high and tight between his own and this time Midoriya does make a noise, a low oh of shock.

it's okay, Todoroki asks nonchalantly, like he doesn't look incredible like his thigh isn't dangerously close to where Midoriya's cock is very much starting to take an interest in what's going on here. ]


I— okay. Yes. This is— yes. [ Is what comes out instead of a more responsible we should really get some rest or an equally reasonable, and perhaps more likely sleeping in pants we came in is gross but I super don't want to get up. He'll figure it out. Right now, Midoriya hooks a leg around one of Todoroki's and tangles their feet together, using that to tug himself in closer to the bare line of his chest which he desperately wants to explore, so he slides a hand up between them, starting at his belly, tracing over it and the line of his chest with rough fingers. ] Are you okay?
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[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-20 06:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ One for All makes him faster, stronger, more durable than before he had it. Before, Kacchan would knock him to the ground his knee would split like a bruised peach and his mother would worry.

These days, Midoriya takes a hit, rolls and keeps coming up; he doesn't know how to do anything else now that he's capable of it. That same dogged determination extends into everything in his life: his friendships, his school work, his hero work. It is, he's realizing, going to extend to this. It's one thing to know that Todoroki enjoys this as much as he does, but it's something else altogether to have Todoroki's thigh pressed tight between his legs, the way he's looking at Midoriya like he wants to eat him alive. This isn't something he can be the best at, objectively, but this something that he can learn how to be extremely good at, for Todoroki's sake. Practical application, maybe, rather than book knowledge and — he's doing it again.

I wanna touch you, Todoroki says, somehow so certain about what it is he wants, how he wants it, a million things that Midoriya's sure he'd take ages to decide how to even ask for. Todoroki just...says it. Swallowing, Midoriya leans in to brush their noses together contemplating another kiss, laughing faintly. ]
You are. So much right now.

[ It's like Todoroki has this uncanny sense about how, exactly, to make Midoriya the most flustered while wringing the least sexy sounds out of him as humanly possible. The hand sliding down gives him a moment of pause; he's absolutely not wearing anything under there and Todoroki's hand just — oh, yeah, okay, he can totally be cool with that, doesn't make a startled mmh. He absolutely doesn't grind heavily onto Todoroki's thigh because he has some measure of self-control here. (He does, it's mind-meltingly great.)

Todoroki's injured. Midoriya's sure that if he looked, he'd find all the tender parts of him, the bruises and scrapes and places where Todoroki wears victory and survival in splotches of blue and red. He just got out of the hospital, it's late, and they're both exhausted, Midoriya should be the responsible one and say let's go to bed and talk about this in the morning or something else, but the problem is he doesn't want to go to bed or leave this til tomorrow. He wants to to coax more of those little sighs out of Todoroki, wants to grind himself against the muscled thigh pressed between his legs, wants to kiss him until they're both out of breath and then do it again. Truthfully, he can't recall the last time he wanted anything, anyone this badly.

This is, he figures, just another thing to give his all. Midoriya squirms until he manages to return the favor: a thigh pressed between Todoroki's own, giving him something to grind against in turn, and a scarred hand touches to the curve of his waist, the small of his back, traces up his spine until he can bury it in Todoroki's hair, using a fistful to gently tug him into another kiss, the firm certainty of it melting into eagerness and demand as Midoriya rolls their hips together, his low noise swallowed by Todoroki's lips. ]
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[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-23 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[ None of the research or reading could have hoped to prepare him for how much everything was. It's like everything is turned up to eleven until he's left feeling so much that he's not even sure how to begin to process it. When he's injured, adrenaline will kick in and leave his heart pounding but any feeling gone; this is that same heart thudding violently in his chest sensation except he feels everything all at once.

This isn't going to be enough, not really. Once won't be enough, not when there's no possible way to catalog every inch of him and he so, so desperately wants to. He could spend days learning the slope of Todoroki's shoulders, or the noises he makes if Midoriya presses his mouth here or there.

Once isn't going to be what Todoroki wants, either, though. Before, he might not have been certain about it but now, certainty is a heady sensation, almost as much as the sensation of Todoroki's hand palming the outline of where his dick is pressed against borrowed pajamas. A shocked nnnhhh, slips out from behind clenched teeth; idly grinding against the line of muscle that was Todoroki's thigh was great, but a hand was a thousand, a million times more satisfying.

Licking over his lips, he catches his breath and can't resist the urge to look down between them. He can't see shit, not with the covers hiding most of it, and like clockwork, there's a little mental note made; he wants to see as much as humanly possible next time, which means lights on. ]


I feel what?

[ He can guess at what Todoroki's going to say, but he wants to hear it, anyway, wants to commit every moment of this to memory.

Sex isn't a battle, but Midoriya realizes all too easily that he wants to respond to it like one. A noise had been wrung out of him; he wants to see what it takes to get them out of Todoroki in turn. This isn't something to be the best at, necessarily, but he certainly wasn't going to let Todoroki do all the hard work, either.

The first thing to fix is that he's not touching nearly enough of him at any given moment which means he needs to shift; the resulting shuffle isn't particularly sexy and he's hyper-aware of how warm it is under those covers but Midoriya is nothing if not stubborn. The hand he was laying on is dragged out until he's able to reach Todoroki's cheek, wanting to coax him into another series of kisses. The other hand doesn't bother with pulling pajama pants down; he slips it under elastic and angles his thigh to give himself room to circle his fingers around Todoroki's cock.

There's no lotion, there's nothing but sweat to smooth the way and abruptly Midoriya realizes it's not like his hands are soft. They're scarred, calloused, and rough; his hand goes loose a moment later. Instead of stroking the touch turns exploratory fingertips feeling out the shape of him, stroking over the wet tip and thumbing under the head lightly. He's not ashamed of the scars or roughness, but as he dares to press a kiss to Todoroki's jaw, his tone is lower, wry but not apologetic. ]
Sorry. Let me know if it's too rough.
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[personal profile] pacifisting 2018-10-26 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[ In a way he should expect that Todoroki doesn't necessarily need gentle to enjoy this. The both of them have dealt with so much that a few scrapes and bruises — while not nothing are still not the end of the world. The thing is, Midoriya's broken bones and been bumped, scraped and injured so many times that the last thing he wants is to hurt Todoroki in any way he doesn't want.

Of course, that concern goes straight out the window when he's reassured that no, Todoroki likes it, likes his too rough, too large hand. Midoriya wants to object or at the very least, ask if he's certain, but he trusts Todoroki. They've been through too much together not to trust him when he says he likes or doesn't like something. To do anything less was disrespectful for how far they've fought and come together. ]


Oh. Oh, um, that's good. [ Midoriya says intelligently, abruptly wanting to kiss the words out of his mouth as he says them and instead busies himself with learning the curve of Todoroki's throat, scraping his teeth over the bump of it, barely holding back on the urge to bite and kiss as much as he wants. He can't not when he's not entirely sure how much effort a hickey takes to make and if Todoroki could cover it up if he left one.

The hand on Todoroki's erection is guided up and Midoriya has a half-hysterical moment where he wonders if Todoroki's hair matches, which he's absolutely not going to ask, he's going to wait and see when there are lights. ]
I could probably just— with your thigh, it's not the sexiest thing, I guess but I—

[ Those are his fingers in Todoroki's mouth. Did he wash his hands recently? He's pretty sure he did, but his hand was just all over Todoroki's erection. Midoriya has exactly two seconds where he has to reboot, needs a moment to gather himself up and take stock of the situation and then he's tracing wet fingertips over the swell of Todoroki's bottom lip, considering. There's a part of him that wants to— that just wants. Wants to fuck his fingers into Todoroki's mouth, wants to watch him take them in proper lighting, but that's for later. They'll have a later.

Right now, Midoriya takes a fortifying breath and shoves his hand down between their bodies again. It's a tentative set of touches until he figures out how best to grip him and then he's closing his hand, giving Todoroki a tight fist to fuck up into as he moves it, green eyes nearly all pupil as he stares. ]
Super helpful. [ Midoriya's voice is a little breathless, a little shaky; he leans in and steals another kiss, dragging his teeth over Todoroki's bottom lip when they part again because he has an increasingly pressing question about logistics. It's probably not terribly sexy, but it's Todoroki's sheets and his pajamas and he doesn't want to get come all over them. ] I'm — do you have tissues, I don't want your pants to be, uh, dirty.

[ It's probably easier to get answered when he's not kissing the person he's asking questions to, but the dim light catches the shine of Todoroki's lips and the shadow of his nose and Midoriya wants so fiercely that he's stealing another series of kisses greedily. It's too much, he doesn't know his own limits. Todoroki's thigh is solid and hot between his own, his hand just the right amount of rough, his erection hot in his palm; everything builds up and spills over abruptly. Midoriya half-mashes his face into Todoroki's shoulder, riding his thigh and fucking into his hand gracelessly with a low, startled groan, spilling between them messily.

Later, he'll feel bad about it, probably a little mortified, really. Right now, he has a shocked moment where he stares, and then abruptly redoubles his efforts on Todoroki, smearing a messy kiss across his chin, tracing up to the shine of his lips. ]
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[ Kissing him seems like the best idea at the time; not because he thinks that Todoroki's going to make fun of him or mock him for being the first to come but because it keeps himself from saying anything. He doesn't know what he'd say, lingering in the afterglow, warm and hazy, but it'd probably be ridiculous. ]

Sorry.

[ He doesn't sound super contrite, though, too caught up in making certain that he wrings an orgasm out of Todoroki in turn. The fuss about the mess doesn't matter anymore; he's already spilled between them and will have to get up and fetch something so it's just efficiency at this point to coax Todoroki's orgasm out of him, too so he only has to clean up once. It's the mention of the hospital that startles a laugh and a murmured I know, right? out of him, low and warm. He's too busy committing every inch of this to his memory: the press of teeth against his earlobe, breath hot against the shell, the noises he makes, the way his cock pulses in Midoriya's hand.

Given a few moments, he could probably be convinced into going again if it weren't for the more pressing matter of both of them needing rest and the fact that he's sticky with both sweat and come. Plucking at his pajama pants, Midoriya gently fits them back up over Todoroki's spent cock and then forces himself to push the covers back. ]


Be right back.

[ He doesn't give him a chance to protest, rolling to his feet a little unsteadily with his legs not wanting to cooperate, but a moment later there's the sound of running water and shortly after that he's coming back out with a warm washcloth. He's lost his shirt entirely, but the pants are still on, rolled up around the waist and damp like he'd cleaned the mess up as best as he could so he didn't have to change. He doesn't kneel right away; lit by the dim light from the bathroom and outside, Todoroki's gorgeous. He is, of course, always gorgeous but it's different, now. Before it was an observable fact: Todoroki was attractive and brilliant, and wildly powerful but their friendship was always the most important and Midoriya refused to risk that.

Now, as he kneels and pulls back the covers to start wiping the cloth over his skin, he lets himself look. ]


Want me to get you a change of clothes? Or some water?
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[ The least he can do is make sure that when Todoroki gets to sleep, he's comfortable, especially if Midoriya himself is going to be saying there with him; it's just polite not to leave a mess. For all the lingering, appreciative looks stolen, Midoriya's hands are almost clinical in their motions. His hand moves in slow, firm drags of the cloth to get rid of most of the mess and then he neatly folds it up and settles out of the way.

He had to break Todoroki's hold to clean up the mess between them but once it's done there's nothing stopping him from touching to his heart's content. He could lean in and steal a kiss and it wouldn't be much of a theft at all because his feelings were returned. The certainty feels — nice. We can do it again in the morning. Or more. If you want. Like they're not both wiped, but Todoroki offers and Midoriya has a mad moment where he considers, that competitive nature flaring. No.

Besides, Midoriya's thrilled with the casual intimacy, in seeing Todorooki melted into a puddle on the bed and that weird sense of satisfaction that came with knowing he had something to do with it. ]


Pretty sure we're supposed to be taking it easy. [ That they're two of the three students least likely to do that goes unsaid while Midoriya lets his hand explore up Todoroki's arm, over his chest. It means a lot that Todoroki's even the one to suggest this, really. Midoriya doesn't point that out, listening to the steady breathing, tracing the line of Todoroki's profile in the dim lighting. Brave he thinks not for the first time and not for the last. ] I think one or both of us would probably fall asleep if we tired, and I want to be awake to remember everything.

[ He slides a foot over both of Todoroki's, tangling their legs together with a sleepy, pleased smile tilted up at him at the way initiating casual intimacy feels like a victory. ] Goodnight.
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[ It's laughably easy to fall asleep, but this is more like a coma. Exhaustion slides over him heavy and overwhelming and Midoriya has a few moments of consciousness and wondering if he's going to be able to fall asleep and then he's out. He does still move around in his sleep, squirming and tossing and turning. At one point he wakes groggily to realize someone else is in his bed (his bed?) but he manages to turn over, mashes his face into their chest and promptly goes right back to sleep.

When he wakes the next time, it's less groggy, no longer weighed down by a thousand things. He feels a hand cupping his cheek and is distantly aware of someone talking to him. One eye cracks open and he puts two and two together, smiling sleepily at Todoroki looking down at him. There's no moment of oh god, did we do that or concern. It comes back to him, and Midoriya stretches out like a lazy, pleased cat, lounging in Todoroki's bed until the other part comes back to him. He's not super tall but he is heavy and Todoroki's arm —

Ah.

He rolls over just a little bit and fumbles at trying to make room for him to get up and go, pressing a kiss against his bicep as he rolls away to free it. ]


You gotta come back, though. [ Midoriya rolls onto his stomach, face mashed into the pillow, hair a bird's nest as he levels a finger at Todoroki like he has any sort of authority here. ] Okay?

[ He wants to snuggle properly when they're both awake and can fully appreciate it, but he also wants this, a slow, lazy morning where he can bring Todoroki under the warmth of the covers and drowse for a while. ]
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